My dreams
Pregnant ladies have weird dreams all the times I read due to all the changes in bodies and hormones and also due to anxieties and I do admit that I have more dreams than I usually do before pregnant.
Some of the dreams really bothered me especially the few that I dreamt couple of weeks before. The first dream was about being chased by ghost and of all the ghost, it is ‘Sa Sa’ auntie from the Wah Lai Toi 8pm series "Kai Tai Fun Hei". I know it sounded silly but that dream had me screaming myself awake.
The second one was about me being pressured by a group of friends to give poison drink to our guru(sifu) in a bid to kill him. Though my friends all avoided being there during the poisoning, I made them sit there and watched their beloved guru drinking the poison. The saddest part was our guru knew about the poison but he still drink it and it had me crying myself awake.
The worst of it all is the third dream I had that bothered me the most. I was carrying my baby for a walk with my husband when my sis-in-law appeared in no where and insisted that we meet the new parents of the baby that we have given away for adoption. Puzzled, I followed her though I didn’t know what she was talking about. What baby? What adoption? I have my baby with me! I hold the baby that had no resemblance to my baby at all but there is instant mother-child bond we had straightaway. My sis-in-law explained that I had given him away at 6months and poor couple, they can’t have children for years. Still confused, I see them taking my baby away and suddenly I sort of being jerk awake from my confusion and started sreaming and chasing them asking them to give him back to me. I would never have given my child for adoption and at that instant I woke up and seeing my son sleeping a little further away from me, I drew him close and held him tightly.
My friend suggested that I surfed online to see what my dreams were all about and though I checked the dreammoods dictionary with words like ‘abandonement’,'baby’ or ‘giving’, I can’t find the exact meaning to how I was feeling about my dreams.
After pondering for few days about the my third dream, I drew the conclusion that maybe the first baby I held is my second child that I’m bearing right now and the baby I gave away is my first child. Since it was mentioned that our dreams refer to how we actually felt and think, I guess it must be that I was afraid that with the arrival of my second child I might not be able to cope with the responsibilities of motherhood and I was afraid that I might not be able to give as best to either of my children. That must be it…the reason to my dream because I did worried about this issue at the beginning of my second pregnancy. Sigh! I hope I have better dreams next time.
