Beautiful Butterfly

So this is my life…after giving birth,i felt as if i was given a new leash of life.With it comes a very big repsonsibility to care and protect this innocent being. It has been so different before this.Being single, life is so easy. Even after married, things are still as usual.

OF PREGNANCY

Tell me I am crazy but I had a feeling I was pregnant the month i got married because I was feeling uneasy and I had weird dreams as if I knew something is growing in my stomach. It may be imagination that there is a soul trying to go into my body to grow into a feutus.One month later my period didn’t come and I bought a pregnancy test kit but the result was very faint. None of my family members believe this including my husband.Few days later,I was down with fever.

My husband wanted to bring me to clinic but i told him to bring me to a gynaecologist and true enough i was pregnant! I was advice not to take any medicine for my fever. That few months,i felt so sick. I felt so tired and nausea. By 3rd month,I was already wearing maternity clothes. Everyone thought I am having twins but the doc assured me there is only one baby and by 4th month, we were told of the sex of the baby.AND so there goes all the weight gains, sleepless nights, body sweating more as the stomach grows and the worst…the strech marks that will never go.

I got plenty of advices from friends,relatives and pregnancy magazines. Apart from eating raw food like sushi, I eat almost anything despite ppl telling me that I can’t eat this and that. The magazines and books help me a lot to understand how my body is changing and what is going on in my womb so I am more prepare to adapt to the changes. I also learnt a lot about what kind of stroller, breast pump, car seat and etc to buy. There are plenty of articles about women going through labour and being a new mum.

OF LABOUR

However,no amount of reading and listening will ever prepare us from experiencing the real labour…and mind u, those yet to be mothers,labour pain is said to be the most painful one by doctors…AND so by 36th week of pregnancy, I was told that my cervic floor has soften and the baby head is already going down but I am not yet dilated. Few days later, I felt uneasy and slight contractions so I went to the clinic again. I was 1cm dilated and doc says my labour will be anytime now to 2 weeks. WOW,that’s hard to predict right?

Again few days later,I felt contractions and VE(varginal examination) was done. I was 3cm dilated and doc thrust the cervic to expedite the process and mind u …that was so painful that the next few times that VE was done, I was so scared and with the doc saying that labour will be 10x more painful, I somehow regretted getting pregnant. I had many occasions where I had Braxton Hicks contraction (a false contractions but it’s doing it’s job to slowly open the cervic) thinking its the real thing. I had my husband bringing me to the clinic at 10.30pm one night only to be told it was still 3cm dilated.

That one whole week is so bad, I was so anxious about giving birth and the stomach is so big, I can’t sleep well, walk, sit and bathe. Again, i went to see the doc and after VE, I had some shows ( brownish spots from cervic) and thought this is it. That day I went to clinic again.There is no contraction yet and my husband and I spent that night in the hospital.It was Father’s Day the next day. There were two newborns and their cries made me wanted to cry too.

The next day,when the doc came to see me I told him to put me on drips only to be refused by him. He explains that if by few hours of drips, the cervic does not open,he needs to operate on me. Of course I don’t want that so again I went home. He assured me that I only had Braxton Hicks contractions and the real one is so pain that I know at it is IT!

My labour came on 21st June 2005, two days after I went home. That morning, I felt very wet. I called the clinic and said that my water might have broken. I was advised to go to the clinic and thinking this might be another false alarm, I didn’t even take my lunch. I was told to undress and I asked the nurse whether I am going to give birth and she said YES! I DIDN"T EVEN HAVE BIG CONTRACTIONS. I called my husband to ruch back from work.

I was put on drips and the nurse said,"Now,the real contractions will come so that u will know how it feels." The doc estimated the labour will be 5 hours time but the pain is so unbearable I told him to give me epidural.Before the anaestatician arrives,I already had my baby delivered in 2 hours,10 mins after on drips. Everyone in the labour room said that was real fast for a first timer. I only felt so relief it was over and estatic to see my baby. The moment doc put him on me, he opens his eyes slightly to look at me and then the nurse brought him away to be cleaned.

There u are. Women, giving birth is such an honourable job and guys,it’s not easy giving birth so please treat your wives well…if not, better.

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